Complicatedd

So maybe it's true

That I can't live without you

And maybe two is better than one

There's so much time

To figure out the rest of my life

And you've already got me coming undone

And I'm thinking two is better than one

Boys Like Girls ft Taylor Swift: Two Is Better Than One

Don't you just hate complications.

Don't you just hate it when you feel like hating your best friend?

I had an early(ish) night last night. I felt like shit, so I just went to bed at about half 11. I got a text like just before 1am, woke me up. I saw it was from Zoe, and actually told me phone to leave me alone. But then felt really guilty when I saw she was really upset and how much she wanted me there because I was the only person who could make her feel better. I was just like awh bless, so went about trying to make her feel a bit better. Then she nicely tagged on the end "btw i slept in the same bed as mike and kissed him while i was with ben sorry ***** iunno what came over me.Sorry forgive me XxXxxxx"

So naturally that pissed me off majorly. My best friend and my ex. My ex who I've been wanting so much recently. But she didn't know that. As far as she's aware, I've moved on from him completely, so I just carried on letting her think that. But at least that explains why he has been kinda distant with me recently.

She's a babe, and I'm actually pleased she told me. I'm glad we've remained so close even though we're so far apart. And he's such a good friend, because he was just comforting her. I've realised now that although I hate that it happened, it really didn't mean anything. And they both still mean so much to me.

So yeah, I still want him. But I've totally accepted that I can't have him. Stupid, eh? If I'd just said yes to him a few weeks ago, I wouldn't be having this problem now...

xxx