It's strange how things change so quickly

Sometimes it's good. But other times I hate it.
Today I hated it.

I was happy. Last day I will ever have to go to school, other than to collect results, and to celebrate a load of us went to Spoons, which would have been so much better if (a) I wasn't underage; and (b) I wasn't so damn bored there. But still, I was happy. I was even happy after a few of them decided to go bowling, and I went with them, resulting in me being soaked from the rain. I cant bowl, though, so instead of making a fool of myself, I chose to watch. And I honestly didn't mind that - I was freezing and hurting all over, but still I didn't mind, I had my own personal radiator ;). But then a couple other people turned up, and I lost him to them, it sucks how he can't be good to me in front of everyone. That's when the happiness faded, just that quickly. But who cares, right? After we left them and went back to Spoons, he was mega nice to me. And I had that small glimmer of hope back again (and a voice yelling "No, don't fall for it, you'll only get hurt again!"), and then he left me, and I didn't know how to feel. God, I'm so messed up right now. Why do I fall for his smile every time? And why is it that every time he looks into my eyes (he has the most beautiful eyes), I lose the ability to think? It's just not fair.

Now I feel terrible. But strangely, it has nothing to do with him.

I'm so sunburnt from yesterday. I mean, not just slightly pink, but I've changed colour completely. Every bit of skin that was visible yesterday is a shade of red, except my arms which are now a pinky brown. Whenever I lie down, my back hurts. And having had the final injection for the HPV thing today, my arm aches incredibly to move. I'm guessing it must be all the sunburn that's actually making me feel ill though. I feel so dizzy all the time, and like I move and just kinda collapse down. It's really horrible. I'm hoping I feel better once I've slept, which is exactly what I'm gunna go do now...

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